Hi ya peeps.
For those of you who now me, and have so thoughtly been intouch to ask of my absence, thank you so much dear friends, for those of you who have not..... WHY NOT!!! hahahaha and for those who are new to this site, Welcome and I hope that you too will find great advice and comfor tand know that you are truly amongst not only annie survivors, but great advisors who truly comprehend, understand and on most occasions totally agree and on the odd occasion disagree, have the insight to stay silent and just let us have our moment of "annie" madness
Soooooo wots been going on since my last posting where I asked advice on how to overcome the anxiety of how to get back into the gym, well not only have I got my self back into the gym (slowly but surely.... baby steps.. and of course with all the crucial advice from you guys, I have also hit the swimming pool, something I didn't feel I would ever do again ( Somehow got it into my "annie" head that being in the middle of a pool is not the best place to be if a rupture on my Watch n wait or is it Wait n watch, I can never remember!!!!!
I have also now moved from Washington Dc to Texas, for those of old whose memory is now not so good and for those of you who know me only as of today, I shall recap, I moved to DC from Uk and within a few weeks discovered my 2 Annies, had coiled surgery on one April 6 2011 and am babysitting the other.
Well I can tell you it has been a very busy, but very positive 4 weeks. Firstly I've taken my first flight since my April 6th coiling surgery, which may I add was extremely pleasant, no alarm bells going off at security and no head hurtys wotsoeva.
I have also moved into a great new apt with so said gym and pool on complex and have made met lots of new neighbours who only see me as a newbie to the complex, not a newbie to a new post "annie" me,
I have placed my daughter into a new school where all the kids are new to a new school year, I am no longer the mother who went to her first PTA meeing as a newcomer full of hope and was then absent for the rest of the term, or held no playdates or returned phones calls as I knew no one enough to explain my sudden annie fate.
I have learnt to drive on the right side of the road, which is soooo the very wrong side to a Brit like me. But an independance i have craved since first hitting the States, and an acheivement I am proud of regardless of my annies, after driving 10 years on the left or should i be brave enough to say the right side hahaha
My husband has been able to return to go to work in the office, after working from home since my annies were discovered, holding conference calls instead of daily meetings something I am truly grateful for, as I know this has made his job so much more stressful, and hey 24 x 7 around each other is enuff to drive anyone nuts...especially when at first he never quite knew who he was dealing with, me of old, the recovering " annie" me, or the new post " Annie" me.
And in doing all this I have not had any "ANNIE " issues, no more head hurtys than the usual afternoon sore head, niggling neck pain, when you do a little too much. Infact I can happily say I feel as good as I have felt before the discovery and am happy at where I am at.
Sooooo there you have it peeps, this is where and what i have been doing during my absence from the Baf org, and now for the biggie confession.....
I was going to start my blog with an APOLOGY for not being in touch sooner, to APOLOGISE that I have been really really busy trying to get my life into a positive place, An APOLOGY that I haven't added any blogs as I haven't had any questions of late.
An APOLOGY that i have not been there for some of you to give advice when you have needed it like you guys have done so often in the past months for me... but the truth is I have looked on the site and I have wanted to post earlier, but as crazy as it sounds I almost felt Guilty for feeling so bloody positive when other have felt so down, Its actually hard to want to write to say what you have achieved and how positive you feel after reading someone else's bad day, and feel almost gloating to say "things will get better, look at how far I have come, and yet coming on and going off the site without commenting is probably worse as I have often thought how dissapointing it is to think that once someone feels better and well onto recovery they don't feel the need for the Baf org..... or to give back to others what we have taken and needed so vey dearly to get us to where we are today, and hopefully to help those get to where they need to be tomorrow, and know there are success stories and hope for us all.
So on that note..... I am NOT going to apologise for my absence, or stay quiet as i feel guilty for feeling good. But share my thoughts on A POSITVE NOTE and hope and wish you all too continue to recover and share the good with the bad days...... And to let you know I'm back, with what i hope is a very bright positve outlook and hopefully a help to others
Best wishes as always
Gaynor x