Excuse my petty rant. Yesterday was rough. Let me say that yesterday was 6 weeks post op and my first day without and help. I thought I was prepared. Kids had school and a few activities. So what caused the meltdown? Hair. That is right, my daughters hair. They needed to have their hair French braided for ballet pictures. No matter how hard I tried, I could not do it. I started getting anxious and overwhelmed because I could not do it and they needed it done for class. My head and stomach started to hurt. I called my husband at work to ask for help and I just broke down. Sobbing hysterically. Of course this triggered a massive migraine. My husband wound up leaving work hours early to come home, take them to a salon to get their hair braided and take them to class.
Yesterday was also my anniversary. Needless to say, I ruined the day. I hate feeling useless.
Six weeks for me today. I had my surgery on May7th in Massachusetts. I have crying episodes every now and then. Hope you are having a better day today :) I'm sure their hair looked beautiful. As my son would say...Chillax :)
Hey Terri..
I'm sorry you went thru a meltdown (all of us have had something go awry with us--big--after our surgeries it seems), and although I can't say I 'know exactly how you feel , I can say I feel your pain, as with both the 98 clipping as well as the 2010 one, I recall going off so insanely --losing it completely, composure and all, over seemingly simple problems that ordinarily would've been a cinch to deal with...The sudden sweat, the nauseated stomach, almost like an anxiety attack. and having to call for help for something that is a peice of cake ordinarily , the breaking into tears, etc. ....(sigh) and then the after-feelings of wanting to crawl into a hole and yeah, feeling useless. It really does get better Terri..
Peace, Janet
Wishing you a better day today...~ Colleen
hi terri so sorry you suffered that turmoil--I know exactly how you felt but I don't think there is a word to accurately describe this meltdown with so much aggravation, things will improve-you are still early in the recovery, it takes a long time to learn how to deal with this and its an ongoing process, keeping you in thoughts and prayers~ps oh im glad your sharing- this is not petty to you and not a rant really-actually its not petty to us either--been there done that AND we care about you! take care~
Terri-
Big big hugs to you. I'm so sorry you're feeling this way- I don't know if it helps, but I'm right here with you. I HATE feeling like a complete and utter mess. Please don't feel like your post was a "petty rant".... It was not petty in the least. It's the "little" every day things that get to me the most. Please know you are NOT useless- you may not be where you want to be right now but you are far from useless.
Terri, I'm never had depression or anxiety to the degree that I have now post op. I've spoke at length with my primary care doctor and she is now labeling me as "clinically depressed" and also ptsd :( I don't know if you are on an antidepressant- but something might help in the short term while you are recovering. I've also started counseling. At first I felt guilty about taking more time for "me" to do the counseling, but I know that it's going to help and is absolutely vital to recovering.
Try to be gentle with yourself. You are so blessed that you have a husband who would leave work to help you the way he did. You did NOT ruin your anniversary. You are recovering and it's NOT an easy journey.
Tomorrow I am three months post op and this journey is much more difficult than I thought it was going to be- but I KNOW it will be worth it!
Sending prayers for you.
Feel free to message me any time you need to "rant".
Sorry this is brief and rambling. Not exactly feeling like myself today either.
We will get there and figure out the new way of life!
-Cordie
Teri-
Hope you are having a better day today.
I just wanted to let you know that you are in my thoughts and prayers.
-Cordie
Thanks all. My week got better. Next week starts the hectic summer schedule, so hopefully I can keep it together.
Terri