It’s been 8 years since the clipping of my right posterior communicating artery. For the first 2 years, I was fine, total bliss I believe but like others mentioned, often wondering when will it happen again, the only difference was that I was praying I wouldn’t survive. I have been dealing with PTSD for over 6 years and it gets even more complicated with so many new health issues to complicate matters i.e I’ve got a thoracic aneurysm taunting me. My PTSD got so bad that I was suicidal. I’ve been diagnosed with bipolar-schizo effective, because I hear and see things that others can’t. My daughter said she believes a part of my brain was awaken and I am just more aware/sensitive than others. I’ve also been diagnoses as BPD (borderline personality disorder) ,MMD (major depression disorder), severe anxiety and the question of if I am experiencing simple partial seizures is still on the table as well. Loud noises, sudden movement, smells and peripheral disturbances and other nuances plague me daily, sometimes to the extreme. Every headache, shooting star in my vision, migrane without pain, numbness and tingling sensation, sudden muscle jerk (the list goes on…) freaks me totally out. I’ve learned to control my reaction in public as not to freak others out. Family members and friends are estranged, my world is devoid of conversation and laughter. I often think of the movie “Final Destination”…hmm? Again, as someone mentioned above, it gets easier with time and I know my time is coming. @Peter_Wison, if things get to much for you and you find it difficult to cope, please reach out to your doctors, let them know what is going on. I wish you and others the best of the best.
Oh, and I sincerely apologize for making this comment to long and perhaps for sharing to much (it was therapeutic for me) and freaking some of you guys out…please charge it to my head and not my heart.
Blessings and hugs to all.