Your story is amazing! I love the strong spirit that comes through in your words. I continue to be impressed by the stories of the members of BAF.
Thanks for your words of encouragement. Don't worry about my giving up. I've had annies for more than 2/3 of my life. And, I've tried not to let them define or limit me. I've been blessed with a long marriage (40 years), a great career, I've sung with symphony orchestra choruses in two different different countries, I've lived in a foreign country and traveled extensively, I'm active in my church and direct a children's choir. My retirement planning is based on my expecting to live to 95. :-) So, I know not to worry too much.
Over the years, my focus has been more on the possibility of grand mal seizures (which have occurred without warning) than with aneurysm rupture. I've taken anti-convulsants every day for more than 40 years. My last seizure was 20 years ago, but the last EEG showed activity that suggested that I continue to have a risk. And, since I've travel both with and without my husband, controlling them has been critical.
A key difference between now and when my annie ruptured in 1969 is that at age 19 I thought I was invincible. Youth was definitely on my side! And, I was very healthy. I'd never heard of an aneurysm so, despite the warning that I could be blind, paralyzed or both, with or without the surgery, I really didn't understand the danger I was in - my mother did as she is a nurse. I would have agreed to let them do almost anything to "fix it". And, Dr. Katz, through the grace of God, did fix it.
At almost 62, I am much more aware of the risks and I have been wary of letting anyone operate on me again. But, I also know that information is powerful and being informed of what my current condition is "should" be of beneift to me. The postings on this site have open my eyes even wider to treatment options and possible outcomes.
Like everyone I do have some fear of the unknown, but I vow not to let that fear over take me. I am trusting that all will be well. In the meantime, I'm becoming more informed and getting more in touch with how I really feel about the annies (my postings reflect this).
I thank BAF for providing this forum. Before now, I've not had a way to share my aneursym experiences and feelings with anyone who really understood. Plus, back in 1969 1970.....1980...., you didn't really didn't want people to know that you had had "brain surgery" lest they imagine you to be a bit daft. :-(