Changes are normal after a rupture! The first year I had no emotions. We put our wonderful lab down two weeks after I got out of ICU and didn’t cry, I understood what was going on but I was disconnected from my emotions. No laughter, no sadness, I called it flatline. I believe it was my brain’s way of trying to heal. I knew I wasn’t processing information the same, went to a psychologist and was tested, had lost about 40 points in IQ. I didn’t have words to tell people what was going on. All I could say is “my brain is black”. My aphasia is improving but I am also able to now tell people, don’t give me the word. There was a wonderful moderator on here several years ago whom I met with her husband. He was the one who understood the brain black and said thought processing! To this day, I could hug both of them! I was able to recover emotions when I went to DC with the BAF and heard Todd’s story of his young daughter passing away. For a few years I couldn’t “read” people which was always both a gift and a security ability I had developed along the years. Now if someone is crying and the tears are heartfelt, I cry right along with them.
When we rupture, blood is introduced into an area called the subarachnoid space. Our bodies have to have time to re-absorb the blood. We also have to do three important things in my opinion, rest, stay hydrated and get enough protein to help our brains heal. Everyone’s rupture is different, everyone has different obstacles to overcome but those three things help everyone. Hang in there, give yourself time to heal some more. Eventually they may send you to a neurologist. Take your husband to any of the neurosurgeon appointments, explain it to the neurosurgeon so he can hear your concern and the doctor’s reply. Also try going to the BAF, Joe Niekro Foundation, or one of the others and downloading the information for family members for someone after rupture, maybe that will help.
Remember we do understand and we are here to help or just listen!