Cgranny, I believe what your feeling is very normal! How many people do you know of get hit with the kind of news we did? It’s so easy to say just relax and get on with it! But how? I guess I have taken a fatalist attitude! Nothing scares me anymore because what do I have to loose? I take my time, their is no fire! If I don’t want to do it I don’t! I learned people are very interesting! I can be choose who to be social with or not! I surround myself with uplifting people and have let those negative people free of my life! Only our maker knows how long we have, and it’s up to each of to decide how we are going to spend our time! I hope your day is filled with kindness and light! Be strong for yourself! Soar! Goldmountain