I've noticed it for some time now (I'm 6 months out from my rupture), but my "flatness" does not seem to be improving. I can laugh, but my sense of humor is slow, delayed, and sometimes non-existent.
It became very problematic yesterday. I took my daughter to a friend's house, and we were there 4+ hours. Lots of stimulation, lots of activity, and then I had a 45 minute drive home. I was in a hurry to leave so I would not have to drive in the dark, and her daughter practically threw herself at my car and ordered me to get out because she had something "important" to tell me. The little girl is 8; and and she was very unhappy we were leaving, so she was trying to delay the process. I already had to put my foot down to get my daughter to leave; now I was forced into negotiating getting into my car and leaving the driveway? I was definitely short with her, and quickly urged her to say what she had to say, and proceeded to get in my car and leave. I was exhausted, and just wanted to GO. Dusk was setting in and I was panicked about driving in the dark.
In hindsight, I could have been so much nicer, or added some humor to the situation, but I did not. I see so many articles/posts about improving memory and cognition, but nothing about humor. I know it sounds silly, but do you ever wish you could flip your funny switch on? The fatigue makes me very tired and overwhelmed, and to be confronted with such conflict when trying to go really threw me for a loop. I would have never been so short with her prior to my aneurysm, I would have managed it with more grace and calm. I'm so embarrassed.
Yup...Yup this is normal...especially so early in your healing...don't be so hard on you Sarge...if you would feel better call and apologize...but too be honest...it happens...and not only from you have brain surgery, but just being a mom is tough at times...smile...and ok laugh a little right now you will feel better...it's ok...no one is perfect...~ Colleen
Totally normal. Looking back I remember catching myself during my healing process with being short tempered with my wife, family and friends. We are all human and we cannot perfect 24-7. One of the biggest things in life I have learned after my “annie” was that humor made things seem a lot better in life. It certainly sometimes made people around me feel better about themselves as well. Good Luck and God Bless.
You are still healing, I can see my husband get fatigued and he always gets short. it's not your fault or his fault. You need to respect your body when it's done. I heard a good analogy about a cell phone. if you have to many apps running at once the battery drains fast. That's what happens when there is a lot going on at once your brain is trying to use new way's to process everything
Excellent article...Thank you for sharing...you are good person Markelle...and I am sure the women understand...wishing you a good and peaceful Saturday ~ Colleen
I didn’t care about anything for 6 - 8 months. I was numb. I’m still healing now two and a half years later. The brain takes an enormous amount of energy normally. Add in trying to heal from a devastating injury and annoyance is understandable. Give yourself time and plenty of rest.
Hi Sarge. Why are you being so hard on yourself? You’re still so early in your recovery, you had a SAH, just a little over 6 months ago. Yes, you’re dealing with a lot of mixed emotions! Take it easy, it will get better- slowly, but surely. I’m a survivor of a ruptured aneurysm, 2 years ago. And still dealing with being overwhelmed and sometimes lacking sense of humour. But I know it’s gradually improving. I lived one day at a time. Else I’ll go nuts! I have 2 kids- one pre teen, and other teenager. They keep me on my toes! Have faith Sarge. My thoughts, and prayers, are with your loved ones and you.
Wow. I was thinking to myself the other week, man why I'm I so mean? I didn't used to be this mean. And I actually said what I was thinking just this morning to my husband. He agreed.