I am just curious but will I ever remember the day of my aneurysm? I can tell you what I did that day because it was my routine during the summer but I can’t recall any specifics about that day or the next (post surgery). There are days in the hospital that i don’t recall people coming to see even though i had long conversations with them. My memories are solely those given to me by those who were there or had heard what happened?
One day I hope to ask the two people who I knew were with me but right now I am just not emotionally ready to have those conversations. I am in awe when I read the stories on here and people can reiterate their day.
Also, i am back to visit my neurosurgeon tomorrow. Does anyone have any questions i should be asking?
Thanks for sharing. It fascinates us because my wife had exactly the same experience. People came from far away to see her and visit, so she visited, but she has no recollection that they were there. That was even true of our children; she says she wishes she had known they were there. By the way, yesterday was her seventh anniversary of the aneurysm.
I wrote a book about our experience through that difficult time. She has read it at least a half dozen times because she says she wants to know what happened. Thanks again for sharing; others have experienced something similar.
Hello! I remember everything leading up to my aneurysm rupturing, but nothing for a couple days after. I was told I was awake and talking and became very combative, but I don’t remember any of it. I also don’t remember some of my visitors and moments after I woke up from surgery. I’m not sure if that is because of the meds I was on or the brain surgery. I have tidbits that have come back over the last 6 months, but no full memories at all. I have some photos and posts from my husband and the update page my family kept on facebook, but I hope to some day remember things. Maybe it will come back some day?
We just celebrated the seventh anniversary of my wife’s ruptured aneurysm Dec. 19. When hers occurred, she was out, and because of the aneurysm and medication was not fully awake for over a month after. She remembers nothing from that time. I wrote a book about our experience, and she has read it at least a half dozen times because she wants to know what happened. Her memory of that time has not returned, even though she also chatted with people, etc.
That is what I have been reading everywhere. The stories of memory loss seem to be permanent in most people that experience it. I still ask a lot of questions about my time in the ambulance/helicopter/hospital because of the memory loss. I remember the rupture and a few minutes after that, but not much else. I was awake all except the couple days after rupture, but I think the meds also caused some spotty memory.
You are right about the meds; they also affect awareness and memory. When my wife returned for the six-month checkup, they asked her whether she had been aware of the trauma of those first few weeks. When she said “no,” they responded by saying that they must have gotten the medication about right. She had very good medical people to help her live and make it through that time. Her memory is really quite good now, but she doesn’t always trust it, so she keeps notes and lists. It works out well.
Keep in mind general anesthesia is designed to give you amnesia. You body will take an average of a week to completely flush the medicine so although you might not notice anything overt you could still be having reactions to it (including memory loss) for a week or longer.
I dont remember either that day … I guess my brain decided that was too sad…Unfortunately, this kind of injury is so different for each of us!!
My biggest fear is that if I go back at work …I will be afraid do not happen again… I tend to stress a lot…
I guess we will never know if all will be fine or not in the future !!
I am trying to look as life is mystery book now …
The best thing will be to find friends with similar problems…May be easier to relate…
Gratitude for all …