Hi JD, and welcome to bafsupport! It sounds like you’ve been through a lot, so I’m really glad that you found us here. You can speak with people who have been through this, and get and give support.
While I know that you said that you’re doing okay, I had some concern about where your head is at right now. I do want to bring your attention to the Crisis HELP section at the top of the page, or here.
Sharon from ModSupport