Here we go again

Ohh, $%^&, bugga, damn. Here we go again.

So, I went to see the neurosurgeon 2-3wks ago and was told "...all good, see you in 2yrs..." Last night I stood up from my chair only to find myself on the floor (when I woke up). By this time the wife had already called me an ambulance. I was shot off to hospital with lights and sirens blearing. After scans and bloods they came and told me "we have a problem" WE??? Its not 'we' it's 'ME!!!!"

The "WE" bit is that "WE (the dr's), don't know what to do... ...so WE need to do some investigations". The information they gained from the scans tells them there is too much fluid within my skull, but he blockage itself has now been deemed inoperable as it's too risky. Its too close to bits I need, so from here they need to investigate and decide a course of action, if any. AHHhhhhhhhhh

I'm to be admitted on Saturday for these test, etc to be completed by Sunday, with results ready for the neuro's for Monday. From there some sort of decision will be made on whether to proceed and what sort of procedure maybe a possibility. This will be operation No.6 and after the last one I was informed that they could do no more without a high possibility of me being blind, so to say I'm a little stressed is.... ....a little bit of an UNDERSTATEMENT!!!! Grrrrrrrrrrrrr

I'd just started to make life plans again. Now that's all just evaporated. My life will, once again, go on hold. My plan for tomorrow is to spend as much time with the wife as possible, because after that, well, in technical terms, I might be screwed. I'm trying not to go 'there' at the moment, despite the reality of it all. I'm home for now with the wife and mutts, so it will all be quality time with them before the drama begins again.

So that's what is happening, BUT while I can:-

I want to thank all of the members here for their support over the last couple of years. At times I have not done things the easy way and have 'flown away with the fairies' often looking at things from a very gloomy outlook. You guys (and gals) have been a big part of my support system, bringing me back to earth and while I still have the ability I want to thank you all for that support. My mind, at times, can take me to some bloody awful places but coming in here and chatting to others has helped me immensely both in support and sharing with others the hellish routes we often have to travel. Look, they might do their tests, find a solution, fix and all will be fine. But on the off chance that this is not the case, I want to acknowledge all of you and say THANK YOU. I feel I have gained more from you than you will ever know or I will ever be able to express, so again thank you.

See you on the other side, as they say.

Merl

P.S. I posted this on the TBI site. Our friend Chill sent me a msg and I'd realised I hadn't posted the information here, so here it is. Thanks

Hoping this all has a good out
Come
All the best

Merl, dang it I wish I had come on last night. Think positive, positive begets positive. Hug your wife, do a happy (slow) dance. I’m thinking positive thoughts and sending them down under. The two of you are not alone, we are all there for both of you. Look at all the two of you have been through, and you still keep fighting. So keep fighting, and when you feel up to it, we can share a beer with the two of you. That way she won’t give you a slap on the head as you’re on the computer and she’s walking by. Get back to us as soon as you can!

Hello Merl
I have read your post this morning and I cannot stop the tears. I want to say this. You are a figther. If you weren’t you wouldn’t be here now. Your thanks is appreciated. Stop with the defeated attitude. Life throws us curve balls but so far youve seemed to dodge them. Hold on I find prayer works for me whatever your uplifting is use it now. Keep making plans that’s all we have to hold on too
Smile daily don’t let life’s strong holds hold you for long.You are still here for a reason. So many with our ailments did NOT make it this far…
I really appreciate you and this group everyone is so teal. Merl you WILL get thru this with flying colors…
Peace and blessings

Merl, what a beautiful message to us. Thank you for sharing so much from your heart! My prayers and thoughts are with you and your family. Sending positive light and energy with deep hope all went well for you. Please check back soon.

Wishing you all the best and hope for a good outcome. Treasure your wife and family now more than ever. I will be praying for you. God bless.

Merl, My prayers and thoughts are with you and your family. I hope this will be the last operation and you will start enjoying your life at the fullest as soon as possible. Everything will be much better than you anticipated, all the best!

Hi Merl, Sorry to hear about all the drama you are suffering at the moment!

I know it is not easy for you at the moment and it is easy to say, BUT, you must try to chill, as worry and stress, begets you nothing but more worry and stress and you do not need that at the moment!

Stay positive and have the tests done and hear what they have to say, they may seem to be out of touch with you, (the Doctors) but trust me they want the best outcome for you, as we all do.

Do as you say in your post, spend the next day or so with the wife and mutts, but most importantly try to relax a bit.

We all know how you feel and all of us that have these vile things, tend to worry and we constantly have them on our minds, but I have learnt over the last few years to put them to the back of my mind.

I know it is not easy, but, what is the alternative? Worry? No! it does not help at all!

I have 5 of these buggers and have had 2 treated and 3 remain untreated, so I know where you are coming from!

I know that it is easy to say, but I have a good feeling about your outcome, though I know you not!

We are all rooting for you, so stay positive, try to chill, red wine helps! and keep us informed personally or via your wife, on how things progress.

Cheers for now!

Martinc

Sending you prayers as you face yet another challenge. I truly believe in miracles because my survival and recovery five years ago after 4 months in a coma was one. Just read a book called "Life and Other Near Death Experiences" and it made me think of all of us Brain Aneurysm survivors. You are a strong and compassionate man and I wish you, your wife and the mutts well.

Merl I can relate with the frustration of getting your life back on track and then having a derailment occur. But such is life . I totally agree with your strategy of spending time with your family and friends prior to the exploratory surgery. I wish you the best!!! Stay positive and confident that all will workout fine!!!

Positivity really helps. I'll be sending a lot of positive energy your way. Please keep us all posted. Best wishes, Patty

Hi Merl,

I know it is hard for you and family to go through this again. I just have the one year followup MRI done last week and still waiting for the result. While I am waiting anxiously, I constantly remind myself of a beautiful message from God and Angel - "BELIEVE IN POSSIBILITIES". I received this message weeks before the coiling procedure in a very unreal situation. Hope this does not sound insane to you. All I want to say is be positive and you are in good hands. Best wishes to you and family.

Merl...

Sending hugs and prayers across our continent...thank you for all you have offered/shared here with us.

Far, far away from brain aneurysms, none of have 101+ control over each of our days...when we are in the 'planning/decision' process it takes so much control/impact for each of us - spouses/partners/ family/friends... and, when we get on a plane, into our car...or in the Word Trade Centers...and, and, and...even in the storms/floods/slides/quakes...as we continue to look forward to each day...

You have a bushel of friends here...to keep you in our thoughts and prayers... each step is important to us...and, includes your spouse/family...

Again...hugs...share one with your wife from across the continent...

I wish you well, Merl. You have difficult, unwanted circumstances. Sometimes we just must live there where we are given what we did not choose. I'll pray for you.

P.S....besides my mis-spelling /typing...

During my 12 years of survival...I have lost more family/friends than a dozen...mostly from cancers...

a few from aging and w/AD/other...

Overall, a majority of us with treatments are here...and, as you have been in your years...Please add your positives to your prior results...

Prayers more members who have gone thru much like MartinC shared, will also share more...


patioplans said:

Merl...

Sending hugs and prayers across our continent...thank you for all you have offered/shared here with us.

Far, far away from brain aneurysms, none of have 101+ control over each of our days...when we are in the 'planning/decision' process it takes so much control/impact for each of us - spouses/partners/ family/friends... and, when we get on a plane, into our car...or in the Word Trade Centers...and, and, and...even in the storms/floods/slides/quakes...as we continue to look forward to each day...

You have a bushel of friends here...to keep you in our thoughts and prayers... each step is important to us...and, includes your spouse/family...

Again...hugs...share one with your wife from across the continent...

Hey Merl, You just calm down & see what’s what… My thoughts & prayers are with you & wife. Hold on, here come the hugs. I need u buddy when I under in May…be strong.

Merl,

One thing we ALL know here is that life is certainly not fair but it is precious! You are so strong and your frustration is understood 100% I'm praying that your doctors will have WISDOM from Heaven and that they will have a clear answer on how to proceed! I'm praying that you will have PEACE in your heart as you read this and protection from angels on high as you go down this path once again!! Enjoy this time with your wife and know that there are a bunch of us thinking of you and praying for you! Best wishes Merl!!

Merl - I too am from Australia and have had and have another brain anuerysm. If I can do anything please message me. I am in the Westmead area

Dear Merl,

I am sorry you are going through all of this. I had Flow diverter placed over two aneurysms two years ago and still have one more. Sometimes I try to forget and feel like I don't want to stop my life again, I know it will. I will pray for you. Christine

Hi Again Merl

I thought hard about sending you this link and the great music which I know you will enjoy!

Initially it made me sad BUT! then it gave me great inspiration, when I sat down with my guitar and a can of Fosters. There is also a few good links!

Enjoy! with compliments from Scotsman with a good taste in music.

Cheers for now Mate!

Martin

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