Tigsmum, you can safely ignore those automated warnings about too many posts. You just post as much as you need to. The only rules that we’re kind of sticky about are these, but I have a feeling that you’re the kind of person who wouldn’t dream of doing those things anyway. 
Yes, it sounds like you have a lot to deal with, and then to have gone from an RN leader to a patient: that’s a really difficult transition, isn’t it?
I hear you about not wanting to go on and on, but the fact that there are always people worse of than you isn’t a reason to minimize your own issues. We’re here to listen, and the great thing is that we get it, all of it. (That said, I’m not a BA patient, I work all over Ben’s Friends helping moderators and troubleshooting. I just pop in here and there to chat. I can’t relate to a BA like others here, but I do have a rare disease.)
We’re glad that you found us, and even happier that you are settling in and making yourself at home here.
Seenie