Grieving your old self…

I just had my two year “anniversary” Jan. 8, when I was admitted to the ER with a ruptured brain aneurysm and “found” second aneurysm. After two coils, three stents and in-between diagnostic angiograms, I had been awaiting my “release to travel abroad” cerebral angiogram this past October, after a year of the last FredX. I got permission to fly (to see my 90+ y.o. parents)… with the caveat that my second aneurysm that had been coiled and FredX flow diverted, was not yet occluded, and the panel of doctors agreed that the “true” effectiveness of the FredX takes two years to fully occlude the aneurysm. So I’m just waiting for this October in the hopes that Mr. FredX does his job.

I am not back to work, and of course grateful to be here for my family, my twins getting ready for college this year, and my firstborn coming up on his last year at college. Yet… you know the feeling. I still find myself balancing my energy, fatigue and dizziness/light-headedness on the daily, and it’s a weird thing to try to explain how you feel to friends/people when they know it has been two years… This morning, I stumbled upon this article in my usual doomscrolling :sweat_smile::face_with_peeking_eye: and it really resonated with me. I’m sharing with all of you, because it may put into words what you couldn’t even explain to yourself. I’m working on it myself and looking forward…

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Thank you @Karla for sharing this! As a survivor of long-term trauma and now an aneurysm, this article really resonated with me. It put words to feelings I have had no words to… and now “heal, grow, look forward” is my new daily mantra :blush:

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You made the two year mark, congratulations :tada:. I am doing a happy dance for you as soon as I get done here! What a wonderful article to share! Thank you so much! I see some other articles that have my interest so I need to make some time for those.

Acknowledging is so very important in my book of life and I’ve had a few traumatic experiences. Less now that I can no longer work so that’s a huge positive. After all these years since I ruptured I still get happy in the holidays I no longer have to work.

Again congratulations and thanks for sharing!

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