The crash

I remember I was so afraid that I was going to have side effects from the surgery. Did there was going to be some long lasting detriment. I was happy when they didn’t seem to be any problems. I stayed home this summer and I’m not sure what I did. After about five weeks I went back to school. I’m a special education teacher and so I probably don’t even need to say anymore about stress. But we had a lot of changes in our district and our school this year. The stress has been absolutely enormous. I stopped sleeping. I had a hard time eating. I got migraines in the middle of the night. I would wake up having panic attacks along with migraines in the middle of the night. And my moods became erratic. but this didn’t happen until two months after surgery and I find it strange. My doctor wrote me a note and told me to take a few weeks off to try and see if I can heal my head. But I’m not quite sure if it’s ever going to be completely healed. I think it’s just some thing I’m gonna have to learn to live with. however, the depression has said in. It is 6 o’clock at night, and I am under the covers because I don’t want to watch TV, I don’t want to talk on the phone, I just want to be left alone.
my best friend says that is as bad has he has seen me in a long time. Having been blessed with the bipolar Bug, he has seen ups and downs with me. But right now it just feels like the chemicals are flying around my head. I used to be happy and a bit ridiculous. Now I am quiet and I don’t want to say or do a lot. I know people have noticed. Please tell me that at some point your brain rewires itself to the right spot.