Hey, Dave. No, it’s not just you. I was a 46 yr old, very healthy and active woman when I had mine, after the first surgery, I was feeling like you, 2 more surgery’s, 17 coils and one stent later, I still felt the same way. I had no choice but to go back to work as soon as possible. I hardly took time off. I was a mess. My job is extremely stressful, I am in the safety field of all things. It’s my job to make sure others are safe. I was always so independent and never relied on anyone except God. Suddenly I found myself feeling vulnerable. That was the hardest part. Knowing I was vulnerable. I was more aware of every feeling, emotion, pain. I had fears I never had before. I started doing little things to make myself get over these feelings. I thought I could “force” them to go away. I went to a local mall and walked around, (I’m not really good in crowds), suddenly I couldn’t find my way to the entrance I came in. I thought I was going to have a break down. I was able to tell my self that I had been here many times, it was no big deal, just walk until you remember.
That was my first small panic attack, I had some major ones, thank goodness none were at work. I got out of the shower one day, the bathroom was steamy, I couldn’t open the door and felt like I couldn’t breathe. I had a really bad attack that time. I leaned on the wall and just started hyperventilating. I thought my aneurysm was bursting all over again was going to die naked by the crapper! lol! After what seemed like an eternity, my husband opened the door and simply said “what are you doing?” I realized I was over reacting and spoke to my DR. She told me this was normal. She said that after someone has a stroke, Dr’s and insurance company’s allow for PT to help them get through those feelings of anxiety and dread. After an aneurysm, there is no help, no PT, insurance company’s do not recognize them in the same category, but they are. After a near death experience, you will have those feelings. They are normal and valid. Don’t allow anyone to tell you they are not.
My annie was in Jan of 2011, as time has passed, the anxiety has really improved. It took about a year to get a good handle on it. I still, however, have anxiety about this time of the year, wondering if I will make it until January… I’ve put it in Gods hands, truly now. I could be hit by a car on my way home, get in a horrible accident, or my annie could burst. Life is short, we can’t spend it worrying if we will be here tomorrow.
It’s easy for me to say these things now, it’s been several years. I had to figure out what my new “normal” was going to be. What I mean by that is, I use to love anything that went from 0 - 100 in 20 seconds! 
Speed, roller-coasters , water-skiing, anything that went fast quick. The one thing I can’t do now is anything that goes fast quick. No centrifugal force. So there went my happy places! I made a list of all the things that make me happy and all the things that cause me anxiety. I found all the things that made me happy were outdoors, like the trees, moon, sun and listening to the sounds of nature, so I bought a camper, we go regularly now. I love it. The things that cause me anxiety, I have slowly weeded some out, as best I can. I keep that list close and add as my new life evolves. I feel like I’m discovering life all over again.
You will get there also.
I apologize for the rant, I haven’t been on here for a long time and something made me come on, the first thing I saw was your post and felt the need to talk.
This site has been awesome!! Thanks so much for your stories, successes, and for just being so totally real.